Music

If you know me at all, you know that I love music...especially singing. I can't really describe what music means to me except that I am passionate about it, cannot imagine life without it and I'm often brought to tears by songs. I just heard a song by Britt Nicole, a Christain artist, on the last episode of Biggest Loser and I have to say, it made me cry.  I've lived most of my life completely insecure and constantly wondering if I'll ever feel like I'm good enough, pretty enough, thin enough, smart enough...the list really does go on and on.  Living my life for Christ has given me a deeper purpose than just living for myself and my family and that has helped my insecurity, but I still struggle quite a bit. Hearing this song made me realize that the disciples, including Peter, who did walk on the water with Jesus, were just normal men. Men who struggled too...with their own sin, their own insecurities. Maybe they had low self esteem too. Maybe they felt alone and friendless sometimes too. Maybe they kicked themselves for something they said that they regretted. We all do and we're all human, so surely I'm not the only one who feels this way. Maybe I struggle more than some, not as much as others. I don't know. But this I do know...one day we will all stand before God and He will show us our lives, the path He had for us and the path that we chose. I know that I will be accountable for the things that I thought, said and did. Things that I'm not proud of, things that I am proud of and everything in between. I learned some lessons the easy way and some lessons the very hardest way possible, but I still learned the lesson and I think that's important. Life is a journey...every thing that we go through is an opportunity to grow. If we allow ourselves to be shaped and stretched in difficult circumstances, we might find that we look less and less like ourselves and more and more like Jesus and He's the most beautiful person I know!